“i used to think that love was just a fairytale, until that first hello, until that first smile. but if i had to do it all again, i wouldn’t change a thing because this love is everlasting.”—billy ocean - suddenly.
disney, i respect you alot but you were wrong about love.
it’s true what the facebook group says, disney did give me high expectations of love. and i think it did to every little girl and boy, when you’re a child you believe you will find your prince/princess, and some people make out their relationship to be some sort of ‘perfection’. but no relationship is perfect, otherwise it is not true love. i cannot say what the true definition of love is because, everyone has their own opinion on what it is. some people believe it to be God, some people see it in themselves and some people see it in others. then there is the weirdos who see it in cars and other such inanimate objects . (and i don’t mean the way i love my car, i mean like the WRONG way.)
personally i believe that real love cannot be described because quite frankly you cannot explain it. the love i feel i cannot put into words, i try to express it but i never really have, because i can’t. to be honest. the way i feel for him cannot be expressed through a card, through a present or through words. i try, and we all try and when we do try it is the best attempt because we feel so strongly towards that certain someone :). real, true, deep love is so much bigger than any human being. and that is what i feel. for him :)
recently our relationship has been put to this test, and came out stronger than ever. and i know in 5 or 6 months time it will have even more strain put on it. but i hope we will be strong enough to get through what we have to do. i know this blog is really soppy but i am in that kind of mood. i can safely say there is nobody else i want, and i cannot really picture myself with anyone other than him. he makes me so proud, proud to say he is my boyfriend. and he has been for four years. we have grown up together really, we have seen each other change. mentally and physically. some times the bad times outweighs the good, but as i said before; a real relationship is not a perfect relationship. and i believe in that philosophy more than ever. :) i love you kieren david weightman. always and forever.
'sometimes i love you, more than you'll ever know. other times you get on my nerves. that's just reality, i know it can't always be kisses, hugs and beautiful words. you were looking for your princess, what you found is a girl with potential. and i'm nowhere near perfect, but i'm around. boy time and patience is essential.'
you light up another cigarette, and i pour the wine. it’s four o’clock in the morning,
and it’s starting to get light. though i’m right where i wanna be, losing track of
but i wish that it was still last night. you look like you’re in another world, but i can
read your mind. how can you be so far away, lying by my side? when i go away i’ll
miss you, and i will be thinking of you; every night and day. just promise me, you’ll
wait for me because i’ll be saving all my love for you. and i will be home soon.
promise me you’ll wait for me, i need to know you feel the same way too.
i’ll be home, i’ll be home soon..
it’s one of those songs that reminds you of the past. to me personally, it reminds me of my mum and dad. when they were together, our evenings did not consist of being glued to a t.v set. it consisted of dad playing the keyboard and singing, and mum singing too. i used to sit and watch them, and even as a child i’d feel proud. and i still am very proud of them. i always felt a warm fuzzy feeling, music made me feel safe as a child. and it still does, it is a big comfort in my life. i liked that my parents weren’t like other parents, even in my mum’s womb music would be played to me. sometimes lisa and i would join in, however we were not very old but we would try :). but my earliest memories consist of those happy times, when i was unaware of all the bad things to come. unaware that soon these happy times were to be took away from me. my parents are so very musically inclined, as was my grandad. and this has most definitely rubbed off onto me. i miss those times so much, i wish i could go back. but the past is not the present is it? which is a bitch. but those times are now distant memories. however when i hear this song, amongst many others, i still get shivers down my spine. thank you mum and dad :)
p.s here is the link if anyone would like to listen :)
..shouting for all the wrong reasons, we just want someone to blame. another day, another fight. so you storm across the room, i know that look in your eyes. standing there. i stand and stare. hurts so bad when we break up, feels so good when we make up. it’s not what you say to me baby, it’s what you do that makes me love you. not what you say to me, darling it’s what you do that makes me love you. you’re always mad, you love to throw glass and everything that could go wrong, has already up and gone. it’s like cussing is okay, and we both don’t wanna lose. once upon time i was your woman, not your fool. but when i go to get those keys, cause i’m thinking that its over, you stand right there in my favourite underwear. hurts so bad when we break up, hurts so good when we make up.
actions speak louder than words, a real man knows what a woman’s worth. it’s in your touch and every move, in all the thoughtful things you do. just shutup and kiss me.
it’s not what you say to me darling, it’s what you do.
men are from mars, and quite frankly, women are from mars too.
to be honest they say women are hard to figure out. well in my opinion men are just as difficult to decode. men complain about women being indecisive and hard to follow. but men, yeah you’re just the same. when it comes to knowing what we want, and getting what we want, men and women are just the same. it’s just that sometimes men are more easily pleased, however that is not always the case..
so in future when you want to tell me something, tell me straight and i may understand it. i believe i always tell you straight, exactly what i am thinking and why. i don’t leave you sitting wondering what i meant. however now i am sitting here completely confused and anxious about the conversation we just had. however, through all of this bullshit and misunderstandings, i do love you k <3