“According to Greek mythology, humans were born with 4 arms, 4 legs, and a head with two faces. Fearing the power of this entity, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend the rest of their lives in search of their other half.”—
i never want to argue with you like that again. ever. it scared the shit out of me. knowing what the outcome of that argument could have been. i don’t even want to think about it anymore. but what was said i think will help us, it will help me. i am sorry for all the times i have rang you up and started an argument over nothing. all the times i have accused you. all the times i have moaned and wined at you. all the times i have not took your feelings into consideration. i know some people reading this will probably think i am looking for self pity. but i am not. i know i need to change my attitude towards life, towards us. i am selfish. i know i am. i need to grow up. i need to do this for you and i. for us. i need to stop thinking about us, and start thinking about me for a change. i know that sounds selfish (contradiction?) but you told me i need to, and i have to. i need to concentrate on this here, but however much i concentrate on me, myself i will never neglect you. and i know you won’t forget me while you are away. because that is not you. you are amazing. i look up to you so much and i wish i could be more like you. independent, strong, caring, generous but i am not, i am me. and i know you love me for me, otherwise you wouldn’t have wanted to stay with me. you would have up and left, but that is not you. i will do this, i promise you. i did promise you. you are the most important thing to me. i love you. and i always will. we can do this, i know we can. we have worked through shit before and we will do it again.